huahuahua, so its been a week since the incident. life on campus for the past 2 days have change. every where i go, people seem to stop & stare as if im like a walking muzium artifact. peeps, im just a guy walking with crutches. feel free to pass by anytime. you dont have to slow down because of me. aiya -_-"..

alrite2, flashback. lets go back to 22nd january. since we're almost leaving, its was the last chance to play on the same team with farabi (different kulliyyah mate), raziman, jimmy etc. and it was another opportunity to play against people of different skill level. unfortunately, rain had poured down causing the court to be quite slippery. even the early match between the girl's team were worrying. did remember during the night, alia fell quite hard, azri having trouble with the ball, fatin the KKM had trouble in her position, mas slipping. somehow, deep inside me, something was bugging me. a hunch maybe. and gawd, it had to be true >_<. nothing during the sister's match aite. it all started when the brother's came on the court. first few minutes were ok UNTIL, jeng jeng jeng. lets express it like a real commentator aite? heheeh. that'll be quite interesting.

"Arion has the ball. they're breaking into PJ's half. Raziman and Sharaf are pressuring the guard, trying to intercept any passes made. Arion makes a pass deep inside the 3-point line. he's free to shoot! Sharaf's runs back. he jumps! Arion shoots! the ball.its.its.its..." (alrite,so i can't recall what happened to the ball. lets skip that part shall we? =P) "owwww, looks like Sharaf is down. Andy, mind telling us what had just happened down there on the court? well Tom, its seems that when he jumped to stop that shot, his right foot seem to slipped. unfortunately, what broke his fall was his right ankle, supporting all that weight during impact. looks like he's out for the rest of the game. back to you." so you get the picture rite? anyhow, thanx to bro fadzil and irfan for rushing me to PPUM. X-ray came back clean. no fracture nor broken bones. just some swelling which isnt that big. then we went back to AC. took 5 guys to carry me up to the second floor as if i was a corpse or something lol. gratitudes to farabi, farisham, zul, irfan & a first year who was buzy playing futsal. before i forget, i became the patient for 2 people who'll im sure end up as great doctors. round of applause to Dr. Farisham & Dr. Farhan for setting up the hanging thingy, taking care of me. basically what a nurse should do for a patient.but they did one hell of a job. siap berjaga malam tuh~wahahahaha.alhamdulillah

so lets get to the real deal. my ankle was still swollen and some parts are blue in colour. even my toes were getting bigger. went to PPUM, they said i'll only get to see the orthopedic by next week. so i ended up being in Kg Baru. one of the nurses saw my leg and said, "eeeee, bulatnye!"*groan while looking at her*. the orthopedic examined me for a while, saying bout parts which i dont know myself. gave me crutches. did an MRI. long day at the hospital huhuhu. results came in on tuesday. mom came back in the afternoon so i asked her whether dad told her the results. she was smiling and said, "haaa, putus2. kena operate," or something like that. i thought she was kidding. bad news was, she wasnt. dad came back before maghrib and said 2 of my ligaments or tendon, but i think ligament kowt, was koyak/putus. grade 3! adeh! now he's asking other opinions. if i do need to do surgery, in 2 weeks time. wait. 2 weeks? exams!!! gahhhhhh!!! bengong2. huhuhhu. relax, relax. bawak bertendang, jangan bertenang ngeeeee =D. ade hikamh di sebalik semua. as shake said to me, "Allah takkan uji kalo x mampu..maknenye mampu la tuh..bukan semua org dpt rasa susah gini...kire betuah la ni...".

so hopefully i'll be able to go through this. compared to my brother's & sister's in the middle east, they're going through a hell lot of pain. what im goin through is like a drop of water in an ocean. He knows whats best for me. so suck it up sharaf! huahuahua. praying things will turn out ok. amiin...

torn ligament?

operation needed?

Gawd,for real?????

*sigh*

pls give me strength in these few weeks.

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why is it a good deed seems to be the cause of the scar within?hmmm.truthfully,hearing those words may be enough to destroy every strong till the smallest will inside.thanx for saying it again and again.

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Sesungguhnya hamba insan yang lemah.cinta ku terhadap Mu telah diabaikan.setiap perbuatan yang dibuat mengundang kemarahanMu,setiap kata-kata melalaikan diriku dari mencari jalan mendekati Mu.tiada cinta yang lebih indah dari cintaMu,cinta yang abadi.

2010

2010 came in the blink of the eye.many events took place throughout the whole year.some happy,sad,painful.u get the idea rite?anyhow,since 2 decade has past by,as one said to me,im still a kid deep within.wat can i do.i am me.whether i change or not,tats another question.who knows wats awaiting in the future.life is a mystery, a journey with unknown variables.the probability of knowing wat may happen next is a close as 0.000000000000000001.only He knows,not us puny human...

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a first time experience for a fellow roommate seeing me getting an asthma attack.Gawd,was he terrified.me?well technically i would love to see his expression.yet,since i was the one with the disease,i hardly can remember anything besides forcing my lungs to breath in more and more oxygen.sham was a pro handling this kind of situation.only this time,something different happened.as i recall it,he did say my abdomen stopped moving.literally stopped.wow,tats new for me,errr i think?who knows.just glad im still able to have my eyes open on the next day,though it did sux having to face a day of misery.ahh,wat the heck.

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MAIG,Rafest,MACFEST,FESTIVEN.loads of event are did/are/will be taking place during the end of this semester. in charge of publication n promotion for Rafest with Gaffar, was involved with MAIG to be among the committee of the explorace with sham ,kosa n maryam(well3,wadya know.turns out she was the head of explorace hehehe).yeah,many events.as for MEDCY,3 more activities are left for this tenue: trip to kuantan,AGD,n family day. as one of the SnR member said to me,"ape jadi ngan budak2 SnR skung nih??rindu seyh". yeah, i couldnt agree more.i miss having all those meeting,the havoc between the committees, the food after every post mortem. owever,i doubt id be able to be involved anymore.tough luck rite?hmm...

another sleepless nite for me i guess.paan and sher ngah sedap layan mimpi masing2.me?well my eyes can hardly close for wat reason even i dont noe.something bothering my mind i guess.hmmm.well,lets recap on wat has happened since i last posted up anything:

3rd nov,the date where i was brought out to this world.no complaining though life itself may seems soooo emm not paradise?course not!thats our purpose in life duhhh heheheh.nways,it didnt really started out much.attending a meeting which didnt finish till after the clock struck 12midnite with fscc n all the head sports,captains ie.*sigh* a responsibility is a responsibility.gotta finish those up before doing anythin for myself.though eja called me in the middle of the riot n some frens did cheer me up by wishing me infront of all those peeps.OCC meeting if im nt mistaken?gaaahhhh,who cares!thx ijah n anis =).next,a meeting with the rest of the SnR peeps.didnt cross my mind they'd gather to celebrate my bday.gracias peeps n im really sori for ruining the nite aite.all of u who gathered tat nite.(mas,nk sgt abg nangis,kat bilik da nangis k!wuwuwuwuw)really didnt deserve it looking back how i acted to all of u.again,gomenne mad,mira,shake,nu',ipan,azri,bama,kema,sher,paan,gya(gessh,didnt have to scold me gurl.scary ooo),hamdi,afiq,ghaf,mas,fiqah,pipah,ekin,alia,dira,hani,fatin(adeh,ramai lak.xingt sape lagi ade huhuh.sori)*bows again n again*.n thx for the cake.oh ya,rewind a few days back.thanx mum,dad,fuzz,bubulat,ngah,buasmak,un.rosli,ajiz,fathin,kak dya for the dinner n the present.ngeee,a new SE phone(the nokia was sent to for repair and hasnt return till now huhuh).rezki xkan nk tolak.org kasi,kita terima ngahahahah.alhamdulillah =).orite2.fast forward again.msgs came in from all over the place(thx people n sori for asking who's this again n again.contacts r all kept in the old one so yeah,u get the idea).got a bag n a puffy keychain which people keep mistaking it as a real food(cant blame it though.the looks,the smell,the softness).well,had a great day.thx to all tat cheered my day(sori for being annoying n such.ma head was filled with things regarding SMAC).

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7th Nov,the starting battle between all 11 courses in cfs iium during SMAC(somehow,kinda feels tat the sentence is weird o_O). football,netball,volleyball,takraw,basketball,futsal,ragbi,pingpong,badminton,free-fight n tug-of-war(bros only this year.sis xdpt nk defend title musy hehehe) were the sports carried out throughout the event.unfortunately,MEDCY's football team managed to qualify till the quarter final after suffering a defeat from IRK(tension den main game tuh.hmmmph!).on the bright side,i got to join a real ragbi match between MELEX n PRESSS.wham!bam!slam!the excitement!the thrill.injured pun injured la.one cant describe the joy of tat game hehehehe.miraculously,i only came out with a couple of bruises on my hand heheh.in the end,we lost to.but hey,we had fun slamming people to the ground.kinda wanna join again >_<.lol anyways,basketball went through till the semi's.ahhh,nvm.here's the results:

basketball bro-bronze

sis-gold

futsal sis n bro-bronze

football knocked-out at quarter finals

netball 4th place

badminton bro n sis(single)-bronze

bro(double)-gold

pingpong bro(single n double)-gold

volleyball bro-silver

sis-4th place

rugby knocked-out at group stage

tug-of-war knocked out at quarter finals(IDEA hantar tentera gajah ooooo)

takraw silver

did i missed out anything??well,anyone knows any mistakes,just inform.overall,ENGENIUS won first place,followed by MEDCY,n 3rd by ECONS.owh n this year,FSCC decided to make a trophy for the most well-managed contingent.terkejut beruk den when they announced MEDCY won~!yattaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!though i may not bring back the overall trophy.atleast i managed to bring back another trophy for MEDCY.thanx to everyone's contribution,dedication,support,cooperation dan yang satu keluarga dengannya hehehehe.we could not have win tat if none of u helped out.arigato gozaimas!(hopefully HMS wat la celebration skit hehehe).also not forgetting the managing and reporting for the sports(sher,pah,jibah,nu',ghaf,fais).owh n those tat supported our team.as head contingent,thank u so much.payah kowt kena psycho ngan supporters opponent hehehe.

alhamdulillah,now SMAC has ended,my final job as head sport is complete.no more activities for now.besides,gotta let my right hand heal.dont wanna go to class everyday wrapping my hands.all eyes looking like a hunter searching for its prey.sheeeshhh.as the doctor said to me,"rice".not rice nasi k. R.I.C.E(rest,ice,compression,elevation).gotta keep tat in mind hehehe.so yeah,gotta rest now.class starts at 8am.hopefully my eyes will shut soon...

another new chapter

entering the 2nd day of my 2nd sem for my 2nd in uia pj(yeah,too many 2nds lol).yup2,its my final semester before entering Kuantan campus(hey GEM!u watch out!i'll b there soon tau).so far,nothing interesting yet.though,a sad event took place.yesterday,an un-enjoyable reunion between me and the other Johannians at Xiao En Funeral Parlour.Kam Fatt,Qi Kitt,Izzat,Adrian,Eng Chah,Quan Yen,Yong Siang,Kok,Reffai,Rafiq,Hana,Selva,guys.we lost a great friend which non of us will forget.truthfully,i was so shocked hearing the news last tuesday.its been what?almost 5 years i guess since i met everyone from SJI.getting the news of a fellow comrades death.i kept reading the text message over n over again.i even called up Kam Fatt to make sure it was true or not.hmmmm,but now he's gone,nothing can be done no more.the time that's lost will never return...

SMAC is coming up in less than 2 weeks.players for MEDCY still hasnt been confirm yet.hopefully by tomorrow,everything will be finalized.gotta send the jerseys back to pertama to do the printing of names.saturday will be the drawing of lots.alls been done.the only thing left is play the game (with no injuries,i hope).

(in memories of Lim Boon Jim,a loyal son,a great friend,may you rest in peace my friend)

while spending my holidays with watching nothing but anime,something caught my eye.nah,its not anything which causes ur eyes to pop out.rather,questions asked to a young boy while performing a warrior ritual.kinda made me think to.

-what is sharaf?

-what is the proof of sharaf's existence?

-why does sharaf even exist?

yeah2,i noe.im a human;the proof is im alive;the 3rd one is to beribah kpd Tuhan.but im nt looking for those answers.im trying to look for others.something deep.answers which would,for once,force u to think thn just babble watever comes out of ur head.its just somethin else tat i to needed an answer.my life during these few days was nt as enjoyable as one may say.seriously.so now,question need to be answered.

oh n btw,never underestimate animes aite.u never noe wat u may learn...