crap day..

*sigh* ape la nasib diri ni..

since pkul3,xdpt nk tido lena..belakang mula sakit balik,kepala berpusing2..bile dpt tido pn,xlama since jam pn dh dekat pkul 6..so as usual,bgn pagi,kejutkn my sis by shouting to her heheh..tunggu die siap nk hntr gi sskolah..the usual stuff anyways..
had plans today..do some work at home,kluar outing jap wit my bestfrn since this may be my last time b4 gi kolej or matrix or pape la..yeap,a day tat i truly look forward too since we planned it..
but guess wat??things WON'T always go as we planned..
for starters,had a fight with a fren.. a person tat had been there 4 me..a lot of times too..i mean,if tat person wasnt around,i'd be a different type of guy..n i mean WAY different thn wat i am now..stopped me from doing idiotic action,adviced me bout a hell lot of things..i dnt think i could re-call all coz wat the person did,fuh Allah je tau(smoga diberkatiNya)..neways,we got to a fight..but in the end,i got no1 to blame excpt me..stupid sharaf!!y couldnt u keep ur cool??*sigh*..so tried appologizing..but,the respond,dh boleh jangka la..suka cari pasal,kan dh kena..in the end,i could only laugh wit sadness bout wat i did..no point on regretting it..bak pepatah melayu, "nasi dh jadi bubur",bubur xleh jadi nasi(xwujud ayat kedua yerk..rekaan semata2 hehehe)..
well,having a fight is one thing,but ending up making another person mad like hell is another..man,i really suck in this *sigh*.y cant i just make others hapi.instead,making people hate me,dispise me,ahhh wat the hell,u know the rest.just hope these people will forgive me.even on this day,i really do hope so..
next,the pain on my back came again..thought after sakit pagi2 tu hilang..unfortunately,it didnt..guess this thing terjadi xkira masa..owh n to make things worse,nk bgn,jalan,duduk,anything la bukan main susah lagi dh..solution??find my old med(myonal,arcoxia dn keluarga nye),mkn it,cari the Dr.backbone thingy n letak kat blakang..hoped it'll relax a bit la..dnt want the worse to happen again like last year(yup2,im sure 1 kid with a lot of health problems hahahaha but im still gratefull im still alive)..so yeah,the fun plans i had,habis!!
no fun,just stay at home,rest,rest,owh n rest,a lot!! (sori 4 not making it......)

hmmm guess i just have to look forward..no point on looking at the past except to learn from the mistakes(tho i never been able to learn)..hopefully tomorrw will be a day i look forward to..